Monday, May 31, 2010
FAME
"Doing it for the fame, cos we want to live the life of the rich and famous"
Just wondering do you get to an age, a point in your life when you no longer live for the fame. I dont think im alone in my fame hungry views. The only thing im starving for is attention. But to be famous you need to be a celebrity which suggest something to be celebrated.
I have done it all, auditioned for reality t.v when i done things im not too proud of to get to the top, modelled which turns out to be extremely hard work and NOT glamourous, to recently acting which turns out not to be overly difficult when you have a life time of experience of playing up . Do you know me or do you know the person i let you know?
It no longer seems to be the american dream but the world dream. Whats left for me, a sex tape ?? Or has that been done too ? Well only time will tell, maybe someday when i make it, a tape of when i was young and niave will appear. Is this naive or is it good business skills?
Is it fame hunger, or money hunger? Well i wouldnt say no to being able to have a few nice houses and a benetly but a council house would do if there was a huge pack of paps outside it , oh and of coarse it had a walk in wardrobe.
Is there anything i would'nt do ? Do you know me? Do you?
xoxo
Are You For Serious
Just wondering do you get to an age, a point in your life when you no longer live for the fame. I dont think im alone in my fame hungry views. The only thing im starving for is attention. But to be famous you need to be a celebrity which suggest something to be celebrated.
I have done it all, auditioned for reality t.v when i done things im not too proud of to get to the top, modelled which turns out to be extremely hard work and NOT glamourous, to recently acting which turns out not to be overly difficult when you have a life time of experience of playing up . Do you know me or do you know the person i let you know?
It no longer seems to be the american dream but the world dream. Whats left for me, a sex tape ?? Or has that been done too ? Well only time will tell, maybe someday when i make it, a tape of when i was young and niave will appear. Is this naive or is it good business skills?
Is it fame hunger, or money hunger? Well i wouldnt say no to being able to have a few nice houses and a benetly but a council house would do if there was a huge pack of paps outside it , oh and of coarse it had a walk in wardrobe.
Is there anything i would'nt do ? Do you know me? Do you?
xoxo
Are You For Serious
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Confusion
Some people seem to have it so worked out. Their lives are going so well and they always show a cool calm and collected front. Unfortunatley i do not fit into this catogory, me i am wandering from day to day just doing what needs to be done without any big master plan.
And as for my front, it may be cool and calm on a sober day but add a few units to my circulatory system, which happens quite often, and all sense of shame leaves my body.
There was been the days ive a have cried needlessly in my room infront of 5/6 people, kissed people i really shouldnt have and made a late night call to someones apartment only to make an idiot of myself trying to drunkingly taking off skinny jeans.
Is this normal and others can hide it easier, or are those people who say eat a meal before drinking for soakage right?? I am a firm believer that eating is cheating, why would i want carbs soaking up expensive alcohol before it gets into my bloodstream.
Is this the reason, or is the reason behind this behaviour knowing that alcohol is quite high in calories and so cancelling out a meal makes it ok to have a few drinks. T.V shows like you are what you eat, and the likes really emphasise calorie counting. 2000 a day is healthy but less is necessary to be skinny ??
Why would someone want to be skinny, is it pressure, maybe its just easier to not eat than go to the gym? Is this behavior inhereted, do those cool calm collected people inhert it, are we all bound by genetics.
If it is inherted did i ever stand a chance at being goal focused, hum not likely. But then at least my life is interesting, eventful and dramatic and hey im only young plenty of time for all serious decision making and meal eating in the future right ??
And as for my front, it may be cool and calm on a sober day but add a few units to my circulatory system, which happens quite often, and all sense of shame leaves my body.
There was been the days ive a have cried needlessly in my room infront of 5/6 people, kissed people i really shouldnt have and made a late night call to someones apartment only to make an idiot of myself trying to drunkingly taking off skinny jeans.
Is this normal and others can hide it easier, or are those people who say eat a meal before drinking for soakage right?? I am a firm believer that eating is cheating, why would i want carbs soaking up expensive alcohol before it gets into my bloodstream.
Is this the reason, or is the reason behind this behaviour knowing that alcohol is quite high in calories and so cancelling out a meal makes it ok to have a few drinks. T.V shows like you are what you eat, and the likes really emphasise calorie counting. 2000 a day is healthy but less is necessary to be skinny ??
Why would someone want to be skinny, is it pressure, maybe its just easier to not eat than go to the gym? Is this behavior inhereted, do those cool calm collected people inhert it, are we all bound by genetics.
If it is inherted did i ever stand a chance at being goal focused, hum not likely. But then at least my life is interesting, eventful and dramatic and hey im only young plenty of time for all serious decision making and meal eating in the future right ??
What was this guy thinking ??
There was this guy, and for once all seemed to be going well in his life. He finally started to enjoy college, his job was going well, he had so many friends he could fill a truck up, relationships never seemed to go well but even this front seemed to be looking up.
In hindsight he had pretty much all anyone ever needs to get by and be happy. But he didnt realise this and so he gave up everything, packed an overweight suitcase and flew far far away in search of what ?? What was he searching for ? Now he seems to be in a foreign place where no-one knows him, having nothing to do but plenty of time, time to think and write.
Maybe this is what he came for, togather his thoughts and get away for his hetic working 7days a week lifestlye where it is hard to distuinguish between those who have your best interests at heart and those who use you as a rung on a ladder. Enough frienemys to fill a truck up!!
Who knows what the future holds for this guy, maybe it will turn out to be the best thing he ever did, or maybe a much cheeper spa weekend in donegal would have done the trick !
xoxo
Are You For Serious
In hindsight he had pretty much all anyone ever needs to get by and be happy. But he didnt realise this and so he gave up everything, packed an overweight suitcase and flew far far away in search of what ?? What was he searching for ? Now he seems to be in a foreign place where no-one knows him, having nothing to do but plenty of time, time to think and write.
Maybe this is what he came for, togather his thoughts and get away for his hetic working 7days a week lifestlye where it is hard to distuinguish between those who have your best interests at heart and those who use you as a rung on a ladder. Enough frienemys to fill a truck up!!
Who knows what the future holds for this guy, maybe it will turn out to be the best thing he ever did, or maybe a much cheeper spa weekend in donegal would have done the trick !
xoxo
Are You For Serious
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